Esimesed pääsukesed

Tulin täna hommikul koju. Vaatasin lummatult Sõpruse sillal pääsukeste lendu Emajõe kohal. Mu selle aasta esimesed pääsukesed. On juba aprilli viimane päev, homme algab mai. Uskumatu. See kõik. Sassis. Väga. Ilus. Ülimalt. Valus? Liiga. Tuim ja tuikuv, tuikav, ja õnnelik.

Hirotta 4

Musta ilme muutus. Mööda koridore ja tube ei käinud enam rauk, vaid noorik. Nõtke ja sale, köitev. Ta pilk oli sama, kuigi - selle teravus polnud enam looritatud. Enam ei kaitsnud see maailma. Kas tal oligi tuba? Ta oli pigem kui tuul tubades. Liikumine. Naer. Valju, soe ja lõikav. Suvi. Üks päev tuli ta hommikusöögi ajal uksele ja ütles: "Kutsuge mind Klaaraks", naeratas ja läks. Püsimatu, muigas Jääger ja rüüpas oma musta kohvi, "kuid tubli. Hakkaja. Kuid püsimatu". Klaara.

Delirium

Land-like clouds
Unexisting fruits
bursting in my mouth
Lost in unseen forests
on paved streets
I drench in streams
run besides wolves
In this delirium
nothing is real
and everything is
true

Choices-choices :)

U2 Beautiful Day
not only the weather is beautiful.

*Feeling extremely torn and happy* b´cause I am having the wild time of my life trying to choose between towns to live and it is so so hard to choose, because both are wonderful with most wonderful people. Anyways getting a job in .. doesn´tmatterwhich would be the best start, I think. :P :D

And I guess that I have mentioned, that I am not going to Uni anymore and that I am happy? XD

& Very ~~ running to see my bro :D

Spring nearing

This blog seems dead.. I just have had too much life on my hands, messy, smelly, heavy life. And no 24/7 Internet access and emotions and decisions and and and yeah, in short: life :)

I do write, but a little and as a surprise to myself - into a notebook. I´ve disliked the oldschool way for years, but having a friend ask me "Have you written anything?" almost every week and a fever did the trick and now I use a notebook and .. keep a diary. All what we have to do to stay alive.. crazy things, messy, stinky things... .

And I am worried about my English.. I have a small reason for it.. anyways.. LIFE. And maybe I am just a really lousy blogger.

Btw I haven´t written any poetry for a while now.. but here it goes :)




One step further, two steps back
No peace granted, just unravelling music
Stumbling upon songs, diving into moments
Wet to the bone, blood a different red
for there is more Sun than ever
or did .. oh yes, I came trough the night
and found a morning bright, shiny and warm
As stupid as ever, knowing absolutely nothing
Disasters brewing and hopefully flowing away
melting with rest of the winter
leaving memories of beauty, pain, past
simply past
Now is now. Fresh and sharp. Simply
Perfect.



Written listening to U2 and in gratitude to my second favourite band and all others, who have kept me warm ;)

Tartus. Igalepoole tormav. Segaduses. Õnnelik. "Perenaine", piraat, "õrn, südamlik, hell" ja "lojaalne". Segaduses, kuid naeratav.

strangled in the lines drawn
swallowing oceans of words
to be busting trough boxes
rising from gorges
levelling with common ground
walking past, resolve in my eyes