~~*~

Happy Goings and Comings! Lots of Love, Freely and FreeWillingly,
Õnnelikku Minemisi ja Tulemisi, Vabalt ja VabaTahtlikult,
~~Yours sincerely,
Aoi ( ->Massao)

with faith in D

Honestly

Vegan or not

- not, at least not now. The thing is, that ethically I am pro-not eating meat, but eggs and milk, that do not require hurting animals --- btw the only farming that fits into my tiny head is organic farming --- I would not give up so easily. The so called realistic slap is to me in the price and actually the fear. I have been afraid of so many things and have done so much just to run away from my fears & sry for being poetical - I fear my dreams. My fear is that what has been keeping me from having my own organic farm, from bringing out Ama to the public, from writing. My fears have made me weak, for my energy has been consumed by the ongoing restraint of despair - I am not living my dreams. m a student, who´s not working, thus I have to keep my family´s financial state in mind and based on the family´s values... they´re not vegans, they do not think of things like this, b´cause they are stuck in their own ongoing circles. & I feel that I owe them too much already, so.. I am quietly building my own life and then I´d be free to do what I really want to, being a vegan for instance.

~ˇwhy writing about such things-- b´cause Fb connects and somewhere far there is a very dear person to me, who is a vegan and she had posted this http://www.takepart.com/article/2011/12/27/james-cromwell-you-dont-own-another-creature, to what I posted as a response: "this reminded me of Beast King, an old tv series, where there was a constant polemic about a lion not belonging to the Beast King, he often had to repeat, that the lion is his friend and does as the lion him/herself wants".

Why bring this lead here -- this blog here is a platform for me to write a bit closer to the readers --meaning You :D and for me to dwell in the whys .. Beast King and the lion are the basis for my the human(-like creature) and animal(-like creature)/ nature relations in my stories, mostly trough the horse-rider perspective - the Angels and the Dgeres, the horseman´s country´s draft of White Mother. I love horses .. and has a revieling fact - I find them transdental, but they are real and yet need our care.. mustangs yes, but to high mentality ethical and caring riders-herders-companions a big yes too.

& I do live in cotton, anime-cotton - such monstrosoties as mass animal and plant production does still exist. I´ll try to climb upward´n out and .. who knows :)

Until then - I missed Bleach yesterday.. my bro thought that I had a second set of speakers.. well, I don´t :P :D


Good bye and happy all :D




Ps no horse yet, but a mouse! A mighty DragonMouse :D

Maya :P

Replaced coffee after having a coffee-sad 24.12.11. I likes it :D

Sylla Soup

Not a cooking blog, but I do cook sometimes and so I´d like to share my today´s little maybe-my-original :P

So.. it is based on salted red fish fillet and soy sauce. The rest belongs to the all-there-is-at-home cache. We happened to have a lot of potatoes, a big carrot, lots of onions and garlic, black pepper (not ground, wholes :D), red paprika powder, a little lemon, tangerine and cinnamon too. All veggies-and fish in as chuncks or rings and after a big boil and some little :P boiling on a slow fire (we have an old-fashioned stove too) voilà! ~~ a soup, what would if I had the rights to name it be named Sylla Soup, because a lovely friend of our family Sylla brought us that delightful fish :D

So.. if you like sour-sweet-soy´n fish stuff, give it a go :)

OMG Bleach

http://itsbleach.tumblr.com/archive


for instance... http://itsbleach.tumblr.com/post/9221349749

Blue mark of Onna : An animecrazy blogger´s likes and laughs

http://mori9.tumblr.com/

ehk siia ei saa pilte pildina lisada, seega ... ;)
meaning that I can not add pics here as pics, so... ;)

Manly scarf-guy & CO

http://bleach-and-gintama.tumblr.com/tagged/byakuya

my now fav place on the web :D

http://bleach-and-gintama.tumblr.com/tagged/gin

...

http://s3.amazonaws.com/data.tumblr.com/tumblr_ltjnpbXVnN1r1emrgo1_1280.jpg?AWSAccessKeyId=AKIAJ6IHWSU3BX3X7X3Q&Expires=1325025857&Signature=a6Pzhvnu6AaKLVuCmzTwpP1L3us%3D

the only devil welcome in my dreams

& with onna - one of the relations sought in this work of Kubo, who focuses on things other than love

ETV Miniscule Jõulusääsk

~ filled chocolates by the fire.. a total AWW :D

Poppyred dreamings

Soar eyes rubbed
tiny hands and mighty wings
Sun takes back a petal, flaming
A shaft of light
peeks trough the curtains
a cup of coffee, a mug of tea
a piece of cake, a breakfast in bed
Pink flowers falling down
creamy yellow sunspots playing
with the baby blue wind
in fields green walking hand
in hand the Duckie and the Poppy

Apelsinide soojus

Laps õhinal jooksmas
Piibelehtedest võluriteni
merelahelised tiibade vahed
tiibadeta, kuid ära lase petta
Sooned sinised ja paelad punased
kassid ja kosmos ja kosmosed
niidid hargnemas, tilgake verd
naeratusega segamini helkimas kroonil
kreemvalged pitsid ja seot´ käed
lilla pääga poiss põõramas ümber
kaks õde hoitud ja hoidmas
Kõik saab kunagi liblikaks
uut lehte avamas koidikul Neo
v keegi teine v kõik koos
kuskil, kus on moone ja
päevalilli ~
Apelsinidega korv kuskil
jäetud päkapiku poolt lävele
kesk heleõrnu lavendlivälju

Sad

1 I´ve lost my home and family as my final stronghold... .

2. Truce, but .. just a truce :D

Merri Chrisumasu! Häid jõule :D

So.. play, joyful Hearts! :D Mängige, rõõmsad Südamed! Ureshii kokoro, asobimasu!

~~Sry, if my J grammar fails me :P :D

Aoi Tori ~~

Today I merged my Blogger Profile with my Google Profile, losing my movie list here.. and got a photoalbum consisting of all the photos ever posted on this blog ( an amazing Christmas Present :D Thank You!) & I got carried away... meaning more than one album found by my Google+ Account... so... if You like my taste in pics... ;)

Orange Vanilla Marshmellows ! :D

http://annesfood.blogspot.com/2011/12/holiday-candy-orange-vanilla.html


...

Knocking new doors

SoarAn
Member Since A day ago

Ama

This is a sprout :P meaning that I have wanted to speak about my dream Ama for some time and this is a reminder to myself to do so :D

BTW

...

I made my resolve ;) :D or found or realised or remembered ... :D

Some beautiful Estonian music :)

Liisi Koikson Väike järv

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s_JhEHHW7_I


A LOT of great Estonian music

http://www.flightbasic.com/indigolapsed/

("Vesi üle südame" ... )


This is my playlist - great music for my Granny what she has probably never heard before :D she can not understand English, so this is a perfect chance for me to play and listen some of our music´s pearls and my own favorites :)


OK not only songs like that...


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Za8h7Z8Rka4

like this from 2 of our most beloved sons (ok, this kind of language, ... but it is TRUE!) - even my granny is missing those travellers (or is one here and going back to the other soon... I do not read newspapers etc I watch anime :P) - they are the kind whose music bonds generations, from toddlers to 88 year olds :P love them, me too :D



A surprise
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NWsmOLm-H-Y&feature=related
... :)



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JtmrKG1fHO0


an amazing song recorded at my fav TV show "Tähelaev" what brings stars down to Earth, brings hearts closer :)



Special among the specials

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2ipMBCTDpPU&feature=related




A change of tongue

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2QciKuyGWm8&feature=related



& back

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MmlGBbgAZm4

carried by this voice into my past, memories.. one of the most beautiful and saddest voices.. :)

OP again :D _ IKITAI!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2NsLYUx-uZk
AWW ! :D

&

So!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pHkqJKipdG4&feature=related

... moving :) teary again. Watching OP I keep remembering things heard-read-known: Japan is not democratic, there has been one honest Prime Minister - Honest Miki and he was killed, women lose medical injurance when they divorce and their kids too, the horrors committed in China, the use of animated series Momotaro to grow a generation for war, 2 atomic bombs, examination hell, suicides among the weakest in society - kids and women, kid killers, the making of "oni" from not Japanese ethnic tribes to Roosevelt with horns... & I watch Luffy, the youngster striving to become Pirate King and to start a New Era, wearing-carring that hat :D what to me symbolizes humanistic values, following dreams and friendship, what does not hesitate to stand up to the whole world to save one of their own :D My fav episode: Robin´s want to live, burning flag of WG.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=endscreen&NR=1&v=FbehCqNI1qs

.. is good too :)

&

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=endscreen&NR=1&v=FbehCqNI1qs

for some laughs :D wink: Kraken ;D Luf did something Sparrow couldn´t! :P :D

+ me on Youtube:

Could someone make me an Christmas present with the Kraken battle and the finally tamed friendly Surime? :D

greenwitch87 1 sekund tagasi

... bye!

Somebody is SO happy again that it is getting scary *_* ;)

So, I guess You like it, when I write in English :D I just checked the Stats, right after checking the Comments and no worries, I get that, You´re the silent type. You´l talk eventually, trust me. Until that day comes I am going to keep on blabbering trying to avoid the fact, that I´ve asked for only positive feedback and the fact that I am not getting any of them... . Did I get You? Meaning that did I almost tease out an Comment from You? Probably not :D And true, that I got my 3 almost sisters here*, one is officially one - English grammar helps me speak my favourite cheese-hole talk so perfectly! Luv! Estonian is even better, btw, b´cause for instance we do not have "she" and "he", we have a sexless :) "tema", so writing tonight I used English to determine the character and carried on with the cheese-hole meaning abstract lose-end talk (inner speech without ""-s and so) & I do like the sound of "so" :D I am using it quite a lot :) Anyways writing made me happy... writing what - writing Db right to the grand conclusion itself :D This covers the happy end scenario. I just found out today´s date and am puzzled.. in my usual format is 211211. WoW! Amazing.
And finally coming around to the topic "Can we read it here?" -"No!" being the first answer in the morning after less than 4 hours of night´s sleep, surprisingly good or not surprising taking to count how exhausted I was :P :D I can share :D the details! what I love :P :D :D
Language: main text body English & Estonian with a pinch Japanese including a word game :P ( I am so proud of that one) and one Russian word and! I just had to use one Latin one and one of my mesh-language created about ........ 2+2+1+1 years ago :)
Length: 16 A4 filled (corrected from "willed" what sounds prettiy good! and correct too!) in my usual-not-so-tiny-not-so-big- handwriting (the reason why I am not scribbling it down here right away lies here:))
Why I like it so much :D : the two main actions are laughing and making tea. That was hilarious even to me and so.. I love it! (a wink @ lady Windy Appletree :D)
Synopsis: someone takes the active role from Db who finally starts acting her age :) I sort of unbridled my mad horses (single as I am, having to do everything by myself and pretty used to it by now) and let them run towards the happy ending, what I actually took from my first story ever - the story of Vic and A, but enough about that. There are a lot of holes in it... like the mayor time cap between the bedside-talk and shredded-glass episodes, but .. somethings are better left unsaid. Who wants to know, ask me personally or wait until I am feeling OK about writing-talking about them. NOW I am going to watch Bleach :P and to all of You not becrazed by anime....
My fav character: Ichigo Cream
!
:D

Cya!





* Aitäh Teile, et feedback´i annate! Kallistan!



Ps "One" by U2 to You two, Maria FreeBird and WildRiver - my supporting tree and my deepest obsession :P (what helped Something-Someone wipe the so called sanity from my head resulting the me writing here) an special Arigatou from the bottom of my heart. To You too, here referred as The Flow of Life including mass media, Ghost Girl, who introduced me to anime and prohibited talking about WR and to Moonlight, who has helped me to do it again and all of You around me supporting me day to day.... me so happy and lucky to have You all (L),
Hel


----> "Bleach"!!!!!!!!

Rõõm

Mu Student on tagasi! Super :D

Kõrvalepõige

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lHW6dNuogxo&feature=related

meaning: why do I like One Piece and Bleach ( Luffy & Ichigo ) - b´cause I´ve not met people like that in real life yet, who are such friends to their friends (actually... maybe I have!) and have such principles, what they actually stand by and fight for. Respect. I strongly reccomend to people who want to know more about me and/or anime to read the first pages (about what anime is) or more of http://books.google.ee/books/about/Anim%C3%A9_from_Akira_to_Princess_Mononoke.html?id=T7WhxNhF6vAC&redir_esc=y
-> I just remembered - today is Bleach´s Day! WOW... a crazy day it has been, that I remember it now, so late. Good crazy 99% :D (tänu mu armsale Päkapikule ja Lolile ;) :D )
~~ so... ;)

Veel musta jõulunädala päikseline hommik

... ehk olen taas kodumail, esimest päeva koos oma mammaga, päev kulgemas Kuressaare haigla sissedrillitud päevaplaanis ja seni on kõik olnud viis pluss, varsti suundun lõunat soojendama, st suur potitäis mõnusat kodust klimbisuppi ootab :D Isa tõi päkapikukombel hiirvaikselt ära ka mu pagasi, milleta ma eile päälinnast siia tulin, samm kerge - tavapäraste rohkete ja raskete pampude asemel oli mul kaasas vaid käekott käekotis ja üts kilekott. Suurepärane vaheldus :)
Hakkan nüüd end vaikselt arvutist eemale suunama, kuid mainin ennem, et hommikuse uinaku asemel sai kirja pandud Db Melon ja Db Melon 2, esimene inglise ja teine ehk esimese jätk eesti keeles ning kes teab, võibolla jõuan juba täna need siia sisestada ;D Hääd lõunat!

Tiivutu

See lühike kirjutis on omamoodi jätk mu eilsele* postitusele, kantud samast tundest, mis veel välja immitsemas.

kui veel pole aeg minna, siis ole. kas tõesti pole siin muud sind hoidmas? minu käed on nõrgad, sa murrad need tõkked ainuüksi pilguga. miski sind ei seo, ei, ei.... . siin pole enam midagi, siis. läksid vara, et järgi oodata ja minna. vaatasin. seisin, kuni kütked heitsin ja jooksin. sinna, kuhugi, kuhu kadusid sina. stripped my soul
võõras rada sai omaks ohvriga, hing kisti katki ja süda rinnust võeti tallele; vastu anti lubadus, et tee mind taasloob. see kajab nüüd kõiges, kõiksuse hääl, sõna, millest valgus, valgusest algus sai, et koos minuga lõppeda, kui täitund on soov sind leida, ja alata siis uuesti, sest enam meid pole üks, vaid lõpmatus. su käte vahel olen jooksmas läbi kõrbe uppumas maruses meres lendan linnuna su kohal pimeduses kobades otsides sind, kelle hääl, nägu, süda on põletatud mu hinge, tulipunane märk mu vereks ja sõnaks, silmadeks ja mereks säravaks mu ees.


* mu päevade arvestus käib mitte kellaaja, vaid une järgi

Lost Heaven - the lost, what never existed

Tere

- It has been a while. I´ve had some weird times here, today for example I ... was deeply impressed. So, this being my diary ... in a way, I´m going to jot some. First, I found out, that my latest anime finding had a sequel in form of a movie & that it has a double too, a more manga-based one. Anyways, now I am hooked.
Better said, attached to something I recognize as truth, my truth. I remembered a memory, me watching them leave and I felt the world dying around me, withering in ashes and them, going, among them the one who meant all to me. I stayed behind that time, but I know, I followed them eventually... the following I do not remember. Probably everything started for me then and here I am, a young woman, who can not figure out, why a text treatment machine has been given a human form.
That anime movie opened the gate for me to that world of ashes. I still do not know anything more, but I can feel my resolve resonating in my every cell on this side - a world heading to become ashes. That is not all, the greatest for me is something impossible to put into words besides "Poughkeepsie". I could, but I fear it would fly off like a bluebird set free. I beg for Thy forgiveness for yet not letting this go. Feeling it filling me to the brim is ... I feel alive.

There is something I would like to share here, another fragment of me. A theory I have been thinking over. To those not aware, I´ve written stories about people... lives of people and their rebirths, parallel existences, ends and beginnings of worlds and for some reason, these topics do not strike me as uncanny, among those lives are some of angels. Thus, to me they are people as others.
The reason I brought this up, is that this movie talks about parallel worlds (and wars, they left for a war, I feel), thus made me want to talk about existence. The part of what could be called an existence, a life - to me it means, that characters in works of fiction are people to me. Call me crazy, If You Like, My Sire, but this notion is based on the experience of creating worlds of fiction with lives of fiction, of having stories stream into my head from Somewhere... one particular with a woman so much like me dying... . There is a saying, that those who know do not speak, meaning the wise ones seeing and knowing the truth about existence, about everything. I want to know too, but yeah, I get scared sometimes, but still somehow continue walking on this path what will eventually lead me to that, what I wanted to know/ remember and maybe, back to the side of my most beloved. Due to my characteristics, that might be in an other dimension :P and I do not mind.
That movie brought me back in touch with that writing experience and all together the notion of being connected to something greater, to something I like calling The Flow, what btw is a major topic in Datebayo ;)


So sound the words of a fool, blabbering, not faint murmurs, but clear and rather loud nonsense, all as an intro to this:


http://www.animecrazy.net/fullmetal-alchemist-the-movie-conqueror-of-shamballa-watch/258637

& mark the final words Ed says to Alphonse, who agrees with his older brother.
To tie things up: have You noticed, how much Kiedis now resembles Hitler?

Good night, Everyone!

Cutie

My today´s Challenge

ps this is my 301st post :D

Merearm

keereldes, kummardades
mustast valgeks
mandariine ostmas
klaasikillud punaseks
tormisilma äikesest
ja välja, pööreldes
kleit seob jalgu, põlvili
kukun ja tõusen
meri on sinine nagu rahu
tõotatu on kohal
et unustada.. jätkub kaosetants

hommik mit raadiosaatega siin me oleme
51211


ehk on plaan teatud sorti asjadest siia kirjutada, see väike hoiatus ;) :D & jõin kohvi!

Missing text

Oh lovely - I can somehow read files in EBSCO... OK, calling it reading the files is actually a lie... ´cause I can read everything but the file/ text. I actually enjoy these clitches, animating a computer one could say, that it shows personality :D
Now .. I must dress up, today is a special day

The Day of 3-Course Meals, Hazy Diary 2

My computer is taking a lot of time loading sites, ´cause I happen to have Porco Rosso in the second tab - meaning that I´ll soon retire from the Net into the animated world, where a valiant pig is fighting flying pirates. I noticed, but did not read an article on that movie in Sage database and now regret... what is the story behind it? What is meant? Anyways, I am going to enjoy Porco Rosso like I have before. Btw I am still working on anime-related stuff for uni, I like it. When there.. I´d like to recommend an article .. I think it had "Screening, not Greening" in it´s title and as you might read out, it has to do with business and the ecological views - it involves Godfather too ;) and once again I feel, that all is clashing - in a good way :D Meaning, that I have a past, what has to do with the eco and I am facing a future pretty much built on the positive feelings what anime stirs in me. As a closure I´d like to share one moment I had a few days ago. I had a rough patch over here, it was as like a storm had ravaged me and my home and I had been doubting, that I had not done the right thing. And then - that moment! It was like deja vu ... I was sitting in my kitchen and then I saw a memory of that same moment, a screen shot. Some kind of peace came flowing from that memory, that it is all OK. Warmth .. the warmth of that present and of that memory, the brightness.. :D So.. that´s all, folks - for tonight at least ;)

Ps finished watching Fruits Basket. Beautiful :)

Almost Midnight, Hazy Diary

Feeling sleepy, having too much going on, facing things once coming, now here & things gone, what I had thought to be eternal. The last is about my grandparent, who is now in a new period - no more doing everything and letting others do that. Something very precious to me is through this gone forever, only in my memories I can return there and hopefully in the future I can bring something like that warmth and beauty to life myself. Goodbyes are painful, not only regarding people.. this time I find myself looking at the back of the one already far. That about the so called sad and now on with the happy - bonbon. Can not say much more, but sharing this ... overload of happiness with this word - bonbon. Life gives bonbons, positive genuine surprises - twists of faith of the brighter kind. I am so happy and grateful for those... including a friend, who seems to read my mind, asking the one question I truly needed to hear - thank you for caring, for being here. And sry for being a mess. I am tangled in my problems and not always there, so all of you.. if You need me, give me a call. I love calls... mainly due to a Troll and unbelievable mornings ;D Plus, Readers, whom I do not know - if you have something to say, some wishes - contact me ... positive stuff, please - there is enough non-positive going around and please be kind to me from so on or continuously :D Now sleep, ´cause I am starting to seem weirder than usual to myself :P :D Good night!


Ps my favorite part from Fruits Basket, Yuki´s words to Kisa... I am still waiting... have I been accepted or am I a fool, who has not noticed, that it has happened already - I am a bit dim on that part :P
The part can be found there: http://www.animecrazy.net/fruits-basket-episode-17/

Laula

laulud seinadele
sõnumid tuulele endale
pilliroole sajanditeks
kurtidele kõrvadele
sosinad
mahedad ja soojad
südamest läbi.
võibolla
need tuuled
puhuvad
taas lõkkele söed
kunagi kellegil,
praost kitsast
umbsesse ruumi
toovad tagasi maailma
värvi ja lõhna
- seega sosista
laula tähtedele
lainetele
närbunud väljadele
laula

Helelilla unistus

mis see on
... soojus, rõõmust mullitav
naerev, valjusti ja valesti laulev
pisarsilmi rinnust kinni hoidev -
sest süda tänust on üle voolamas!
mina, üksi, kuid õnnelik
sest Sina teed imesid enda teadmata
keegi, kusagil, oled loonud
enda elust andnud osa, jaganud
~vaid lained meres, säbarad õrnukesed
üll taevas helelilla, roosa
pilvelintide kaisus helekollane kuu



http://www.animecrazy.net/full-moon-wo-sagashite-episode-52/80868 ehk Full Moon wo Sagashite, loojatest ja loojangust rõõmsast :)

Anime... is my supporter, the shoulder of the Other. Japanese studies are a pathway to a greater understanding of all around me. Writing is the fast way to load off weight from my shoulders, so I could walk on as fast as I can like always do. Drawing is something I can not do without slowing down, facing myself. Singing, cooking, building a farm, writing books, having a family - are my dreams. I want to fulfill the wishes of my heart and bring out my full potential as a creative being. And the last, but not least - things, they are my silent partners on this journey. Thank You. People.. are like stars above. Hopefully, someday... they´ll be closer, here.

eternal night
afraid of starry skies
the loneliness
in the cold
when no one comes
sees, listens
to these words brewing
brimming over
only curse!
that they
remember, know
fools, thy angels
devilish deeds
pure hearts
hurt, deeply hurt
children
cold as stars
ahigh

Mustade ja valgete vahelt
punane niit jookseb läbi
tule ja lume üheks seob

- Jah, ma olen veel Blood Masshiro

2. üritus saadetud, seal mainitud Eleegiat ... kätketud mu valu ja unelmad, mu väikene rõõm ka :)
&
keegi mulle väga kallis läheb oma kire järel kaugele kaugele - soovin talle unistuste täitumist ja vaimustavaid elamusi! ning endale veel selliseid SMSe
&
Õeke andis esimese raadiointervjuu............. tahan rohkem teada sellest!!! Mind mainiti ka vist, seega - mul õigus teada! ;D :D Luv ju tuu :D :D :D

Oeh, uni. Teine kohvipäev, täna 3 tassi 3-in-1, ema käis külas, kodu sai koduks. Õnnelik ja rahul ja ... vihasena juksivat internetti kiruv - mina. Sinule :D Head ööd soovin, st ;)

People, who you let the closest can hurt you the most. Blindly cut.And stamp over you blindly over and over again. & I accept these cuts as I walk trough this life very much like a passageway of thorny most beautiful roses!

3003 pageviews, Arigatou!

Uuesti elamise õpik

http://www.animecrazy.net/one-piece-movie-6-baron-omatsuri-and-the-secret-island-watch/248389 lõpulaul pani mind uuesti mõtlema, et One Piece on hikikomori´dele mõeldud uuesti oma toast väljaspool elama hakkamise õpik. Nojah, kui paljud oskavad sellele asjale nii vaadata, kuid minu jaoks küll - suur positiivse energia hulk, sotsialistlikud-humanistlikud ideaalid üsnagi tobenaljakas kaasakiskuvas pakendis. I likes, even then it is all an anime machine

A child holding a mirror

blinded by the light shown
eaten inside by the fear
to face the scared child crying
Time may pass, eons may
come and go with
Suns dying and being born again
the tears just keep on flowing
What was it torn from my hands
did someone betray my trust
- lightning has stroked from the blue
nothing will ever be the same again
Face wet of tears I smile my faint smile
for in this night have seen stars
dashing over the sky
When the day comes
for me to open the door into the light
I´ll bear this shine in my heart
this light brighter then the Sun itself
blinded by the light shown
embracing the fear inside
the child inside, warm and tight
Still if I should fall
those stars remain somewhere
guiding or misleading
all of this painful beauty
never existant truth
My smile was true and so were my tears
fears - I´d say
not knowing much
clasping to someone´s hand
who refuses to let me go
and come
- witches´ circle, isn´t it?



Written (singing in my mind) with the ending´s tune of Mahou Shoujo Madoka Magica ringing in my head - good stuff btw ;) ? I guess I am going back. Existence without them.. is empty / Mahou Shoujo Madoka Magica 12 episodes total finished/

Mustade ja valgete vahelt
punane niit jookseb läbi
tule ja lume üheks seob
Kõhkluste tuules soovin seista
eemal abistavast käest
kukkuda, kui pole valmis
hukkuda, kui see mu tegude hind
Liha mullaks, muld õunaks
tants tulle, rahu lumme
indigosinine öö

***


Sina seal ja mina siin
me vahel okastest sein
mõlema valu ja hirm
Sajab vihm, mis mitte kunagi ei saja/ Kõik on võõrad

-


Sina seal ja mina siin
me vahel okastest sein -
mõlema valu ja hirm
Läbi pisarate teineteist ei näe
jookseme mööda ja läbi
maskidega mängime
Hinged kärisevad sees

-

Sina seal ja mina siin
me vahel okastest sein
- mõlema valu ja hirm
Läbi pisarate me teineteist ei näe
jookseme mööda ja läbi
maskidega mängime
Pimedate käes on tuli ja noad
valust valu võrsub
valgust virvatulest ei erista
mu kartlik käsi, mis su külge
klammerdub, viimane lootus
oled mul sina
Valudes, hirmust painatud
okastest verel hoian ma sinust
Sa pole ei tõde ega vale
oled sa ulm või needus
- sa oled siin, teine
kes kannatab ja kahtleb
või on seal teistpool
ees



Reaktsioon: 08/11/2011 16:48 salvestatud, avaldatud 14.08 20.11.11

You don’t always have to pretend to be strong,
there’s no need to prove all the time that everything is going well,
you shouldn’t be concerned about what other people are thinking,
cry if you need to,

it’s good to cry out all your tears
(because only then will you be able to smile again).

... meaning, that I like the second half, the ridiculous-theme does not suit me :) The 2nd one is wow :D

A Super Day

Doing a lot of things, but having help. Reading and still having time to watch a movie and even do research in EBSCO. Unbelievable ! But SO TRUE :D

It truly is...

http://annesfood.blogspot.com/2011/11/fabulous-dinner.html :D

3 : One Piece

1 Control
2 Anarchy
3 Principles


Ps watching the first movie and oh, it is OLD! :D and carries messages, like

_ Do not trample on others dreams
_ If you want to be strong, be strong!

From anime, important symbols
_ A Pirate
_ A Pirate Flag
_ Inherited Will
_ Nakama
_ Following Your Dreams

A great summary
http://www.animecrazy.net/one-piece-movie-4-the-dead-end-adventure-watch/248386

& to those interested and wanting know more - this is one of my baccalaureate´s graduation paper´s topics and I think I am going to post some ideas here as well :)

WOW! A Great One Piece video!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rTVBPURFSE4&feature=channel_video_title

made for a song competition, very well made I think - but remember, a fan speaking here, I remember the context and I used to cry so much when watching the sad parts ... . So much goodness in one thing, marvellous. Whoaah :D

Meat Loaf

One of my favorite CDs is his simply the best 1999 (Epic). An oldie. Amazing. The whole album is like of those songs that play at the backround of movie ending titles, there is the sense of completion, only without the movie :P :D
A hint of contents a fav among fav, b´cause it is somehow really uplifting and positive -
Midnight at the Lost and Found

"Unrequited love" textbook

I finished the "Unrequited love" textbook tonight. Named Honey and Clover, igas osas KOLM väga head laulu, ja rohkem ei oskagi õelda. Liiga hea. Üks parimaid. In love with it. Tsutto

http://www.animecrazy.net/honey-and-clover-ii-episode-11/46605

A Bleach-moment . . .
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I did it!

I just got SHOCKED. The ceiling, the floor... which is which? And it was a good surprise.

/.../ for you might be the black rich soil
covered by white snow
or are you the night
filled with falling flakes? /.../

Mawaru no hi

Everything happens for a reason
even when since then
the reflection in the mirror
cuts like shredded glass
under your feet
I will not dream of the future
I will not cry over the past
or break all promises given
I´ll just keep on walking
be the footprints I leave behind
red of blood or not
The unfamiliar face will someday
be familiar again, the skin natural to wear
Flowers sprout from where you step
in souls of those around
and the colors of their petals
shall at one day blend into white
For now I am OK walking
not knowing, being foolish and wrong
being mistaken or unnoticed
cut out or pulled in, above or under
makes no difference
for all spins and I don´t like standing still
... still, I ask -
is it wrong for me to want that someone
would understand me, see me as I am
not as they think I am...



Watching Honey and Clover, having a phrase in my head - mawaru no hi... õigesti kirjutatult "mawaru hi". Mulle meeldib "no" poolt tekitatav paus, õhk, ruum, katkestus. Mitte minna sõgedana edasi, vaid korra seisatada ja ...

Tsitaadid * Quotes

● Our fingerprints don't fade from the lives we touch.
● Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls ( J. Campbell).
● Happiness is as a butterfly which, when pursued, is always beyond our grasp, but which if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you (Nathaniel Hawthorne).
● Mida enam kohtled last kui inimest, seda rohkem inimene temast saab (John Locke)!
● Jumalal pole kombeks ust Su nina eest kinni lüüa ilma, et ta avaks Sinu jaoks vähemalt karbi ilma säilitusaineteta võiküpsiseid (Elizabeth Gilbert).
● Elu on fotograafia - kõik oleneb sellest, millise objekti teravustad (taustal on alati mingit hägust kräppi).
● Aga see on ikka nii, et hakkad jooma veini ja ühel hetkel tekib mingi veider samasus selle tulnukaga..(K.K.)

--- taaskord midagi Facebook´i avarustest :D

Pisike illustreeriv pildike on siin :)

Granada uksed

Granada uksed krigisevad, kuid avanevad ikkagi. Rasked ja rohmakad, mu sõbrad, abimehed. Nüüd aga on uued soovid ja uued hirmud. Las tulevad nende tuuled siiagi. Saagu rahu või sõjatanner. Lahti.

Elu puu

Kusagil kaugel ja väga lähedal su südame sees kasvab üks puu, millel on kõigi maailmade lillede õied ja kõigi maailmade puude viljad. Iga selle puu tärkav õis on üks valgusest algav elu ja kuis see elu kasvab ja areneb õitseb see õis üha kaunimalt, selle lõhn on üha jumalikum ja sellest saab toores vili, mis elu soojuses ja valguses küpseb üha ilusamate värvidega ja jumalikuma maitsega valmis viljaks. Selle puu õied on kõigi maailmade ilu, selle puu viljad on kõigi maailmade tõde. Need õied ja viljad on kõigi elude janu, isu ja igatsus millegi kaugema ja kõrgema järele ning nende täitumus - neid saab korjata iga hing vaid oma sisimast.

Tema oksad ja juured on kui taeva peegeldus merest; iga tema leht on lehekülg Elude Raamatust, kordumatu ja hindamatu; nende lehtede võbin ja värelus elujõudude tuules kõneleb iga hinge häälel ( hinge helinal, 10129) nende kõige ilusamast õppetunnist kõige helisevamal häälel.

Tema elumahl on nende hingede kogetud armastus, mille nad kui mesilased kõigi maailmade aasadest ja metsadest toovad oma kärjedesse alguseks eludele, et Elu Ring iial ei katkeks ja see ei katkegi ja nii õitseb see puu alati ja nende õite hurmas valmivad säravvärskete lehtede kaisus mahlakad viljad, mis küpsetena varisevad merre ja seal lahustuvad veeks, mis toidab Igaviku Allikat.

Selle puu iga eluring on ühe kõik maailmad läbinud hinge teekond, mis alanud lättel ja taas kord sellesse suubunud peale kõigil teedel kõndimist ja kõigi väravate läbimist – iga eluring sellel puul on üks imeline kaart kõigi maailma imede märkidega ja saladuste võtmetega.

Selle puu õis ja vili oled sina ja kõik, mida sa tajud ja näed oma ümber. Sina toidad iga tema rakku, tema okstena küündid sa puhtamaisse valgusesse ja juurtena kargemaisse allikasse. Sina oled see valgus ja sina oled see allikas ja kõik su elud ja su hinge sisim on kirjas igal puulehel ja liblikatiival selle rootsudes, veresoontes su käel ja veesoontes, mis võrguna kastavad me Maad, oled Elulill, mis ühendab kõike, hoides endas saladust, et kõik on üks. On üks, mis loob kõik – armastus.

Armasta ja toida Elupuud. Armasta ja anna kõik, mis sul on, et seda saaks edasi anda. Kanna oma südames kõike, et Elupuu saaks kanda elu. Hoia end, sest nii hoiad sa elu.
Ela oma südame järgi – su sees südame ligidal sosistavad lehed vastuseid, paljastavad suurimaid saladusi - ja juhatavad teed koju. Raja kodu oma südame sisse, ehita see valgusest armastuse tõest ja lase selle uksed ja aknad valla kõigile hingedele, kes kõigi maailmade radadel rändavad ja jaga nendega kõike, mida saad. Nii jääb kõik, jääb see imeline tunne, milles hetkel kümbled, ja saadab sind nagu saadab sind Valgus Algusest saati. Valgust ja Armastust, mu kallis kaasrändur.


Kirjutatud 2007 talvel. Sisuliselt on see minu tollase eluperioodi mõtete, soovide kokkuvõte ja kehastus. Kunagise minu hääl. Tollaste hirmude eemale peletamine arvuti, Word´i ja Youtube´i abil. Olen muutunud, kuid.. kuskil minus on see alles, kõlab. Nüüd kostab Teilegi.

... . Ei, ma ikka ei taha armastusest luuletada. Tahan seda elada.

Again! A Pumpkin Lover

http://www.addictedtoveggies.com/2011/10/orange-pumpkin-spice-latte.html

............ screaming! A pleasure to live. In a world, where PUMPKINS and creators or .. creative pumpkins :D exist.


Just Lovely.
In the grandest way.

Awesome!

http://www.addictedtoveggies.com/2011/10/orange-pumpkin-spice-cookies.html

Juba fotode vaatamisest saan energialaksu. Paneb uusi asju ja oskusi tahtma. Küll tuleb ka nende unistuste realiseerimise aeg ;) Ja õnnitlused neile õnnelikele, kes juba sealmaal on! ;D

You Learn mängib jälle ... :D


Veel jagaks oma rõõmu ühe asjakese leidmise üle: http://books.google.com/books?id=cSM4IsEZVlMC&printsec=frontcover#v=onepage&q&f=false ehk üks animetemaline uurimustöö. Lünklikult seal äratoodud, kuid saan täisteksti andmebaasidest otsida ehk süvaveebist. Saan seda kui "huvitavat materjali" kasutada oma animeteemalistes töödes - omamoodi hüppelauana tundub... tavaliselt on info leidmine kuidagi keeruline. Seekord mitte. Kummaline ja HEA. Vaat nii. :D

Db 12

Then the second round

"I think we should talk". Sitting on the edge of his desk was her. The girl from the picture. Looking someward different, but yeah, the picture was pretty old. No fear, no thinking like "I should run, call, scream"... no, he smiled. She smiled while saying, that they should talk. "I won´t stop the bullet". Still - no anger. She´s the kind of person, who makes people smile - she smiles and you can not help it, you smile too. Thinking that, he nodded. A dim room, two people having a conversation. Laughter. Saying goodbye. She walked towards the window, then turned around and waved to him. His eyes smiled

Silence.

http://memberfiles.freewebs.com/75/74/44407475/photos/Tea-Coffee-Milk-Soda-Juice-and-Water-Anime-Drinks-Pics/bleach%20tea%20time.jpg

ehk Blogger ei luba enam netipilte kasutada, mis ikka ;) Muidu on kõik rõõsa, kui äiksepilved roosad on ;D

Midagi head: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=onvYOXEQbG8&feature=related

Pai-bye!

... ehk mõni asi on liiga hea, et seda sõnadesse panna!

Db 11

Headache... this case is pointless - they expect us to be able to do something n o w? In a dim room, behind a desk. Late. An open folder. Lost in thought. Rubbing his face, frowning. The files before him. A photo. "She was young..." he said in a quiet voice. "Zanen". Satō had had a peek of the file. "I am going. Meet you later at the usual?" and the man at the desk uttered something somehow understandable as "yes". He left. Files.... these files... . The agent behind his desk grasped his head as trying to grasp what had just happened. After sitting like that for half an hour he quietly stood up, took his revolver from one of the drawers of his desk, checked - it was loaded. 2 rounds. Left. The bar was noisy as usual. The alley behind it quiet as usual. He did not doubt ... he followed me there, one round was enough. Behind his desk again, scribbling down a note. An explenation to the boss. Then the second round. Silence.

Thanks to Vero, who sometimes comes home late

Blood Masshiro

Love is a tool
for me to build you
A dress bloodred
I cover with my name
Screams with silence
Walking afar
ahead, behind
Speaking sensless
words of madness
Anger is my second name
the storm destroying
for loneliness
is cruelest
Flames ravaging I cover
with purest snow
and walk on
always alone

A fangirl too :D

Vihane hommik. Ma vist ikka pole rahul. Öö oli õhtul joodud kohvi tõttu suht kehva unega - õigemini, see mis oli, oli hea, aga hää vahel olid mitte kõige toredamad pausid. Taipasin just, et mu vastus siin praegu valjusti mängibki: "what you don´t know, you can feel somehow; what you don´t have, you don´t need it now, don´t need it now" ehk diip, kas pole? Sõnad on siin. Vanameistrite U2 laul "Beautiful Day", selle võimas finaal ehk "need vanad hullud". Midagi ilusat siin elus ikkagi on :D ja eks ma lähen edasi nagu see laul mulle aastaid õpetanud on: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=emFUtuotHL4. Tõsi, need on vaid hetked. Tavaliselt taipan seda kuskil juba kaugel, naerdes, joostes. Kokkuvõtvalt: vt üles ;)

Db 10 1

Kõrbes aga olid töised päevad. Meehaesse jõudsid teated, et ka teised selle regiooni uurimisasutused olid saanud sarnased pakid. Saraye suletud kogu: Reeturite Saali seinu katnud riiulite kurvad asukad, konfiskeeritud teosed. Lahingud, repressioonid ja nüüd on nad siin, kõrbes. Mõni ringiga tagasi, mõni püssirohu lõhnaga... Windfall, õeldi selle kohta. Sakura istus akna all. Sagijad teda ei seganud. Ta lubab endale harva puhkust, aga praegu ta puhkab sirvides omaaegset kokaraamatut. Fotod on hästi säilinud. Kõrvitsa kollane särab veel. Juurviljad. Millal meil viimati juurviljaplats oli... Väike laut lammastega, lehm, kompostihunnik ja paar nigelat peenart kullast kallimas mullas kasvavate kõrbetolmust hallide lehtedega taimedega ning sama karva kanadega, kellest tundus tihti rohkem tüli kui tulu olevat. Nüüd igatsetakse neidki. Vanad memmed mäletavad veel seda aega, paljudes peredes on reliikviatena siis kirjutatud retseptid oma aia saaduste tarvis. Kaunis käekirjas, mõned illustreritud. Üks neist memmedest tõi mulle kord jõuludeks tänukingiks väikese džuudist kotikese paberkuiva tüümianiga sealt samast, aiast. Pisarates palus ta selle vastuvõtmist. Heh, nüüd on see mul alati kaasas, jaki sisetaskus.


Käsikirjast ümber kirjutatud

Kodus! Kollane sügis! Jeee!

Aaaaaah vaheaeg! Kimi no Todoke lõpuni vaadatud, rumalusi tehtud, veel tegemisel - elu peab ju põnev olema ning võibolla on minusuguseid narrikesi tarvis... kunagi ei või teada. Igastahes olen praegu Saares, ülirahul oma eluga, sh kahe paari uute saabastega :D ja mõne asjaga veel ;) Päike paistab ja kõik kõik on säravkollane. Imeilus, nagu muinasjuturiik. Meenus, et mul on piparmünti = hea tee ning veel lilla koorega porgandeid ja õunu, millest lähiajal moosi teha saan. Mõnus - kokkamine = kohustuslik puhkamise osa. Lõpetuseks: lemmik Kimi no Todoke tegelane on... Pin! :D

p.s. porganditest teen ikka salatit, mitte moosi... vähemalt seekord ;)

Bleach Opening 1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xhrf0VpMaX0 meaning the link to my most favorite song.. at least I can understand the lyrics in English below now.. and those are amazing.
So happy, I found the best/ my fav translation :D

rahul, täis valatud klaas
joodud, kiirustamata
positiivne katkestus
tühi, mu käes
- valataks veel, kuid mu isu
on täis
naeratades vaatan
kuis valgus on mahe
piirid pehmed, miski ei lõika
miski muu...
kui meenutus kellegist,
kes oli nagu sina
tal polnud nägu, aga oli süda
klaas olematu
kättesaamatu sina
taas naasva janu
võttab kanda uni
kõikvõimas

Spinning Days/ Mawaru no hi

Täna käisin esimest korda lolitas väljas, trammis, Balti jaamas - pead pöördusid. Sellist pilti nähtakse vist harva. Üks joodik tuli trammile... see lõhn ja hiljem üks teine aroom ja autosõidu ajal "võtteplatsile" :) olin car sick - seda pole minuga aastaid juhtunud! Nojah, sain aru, et maasikamaitselised-lõhnalised jogurtid ja muud hulgitooted mulle ei istu + üks taustapilt ja mina kohe.................. ! Kummaline tunne oli. Meid tuli vähe kohale, kuid oli tore. Väga tore - aitäh Teile kõigile selle imelise päeva eest! Aitäh ka Teile, tänu kellele ma niikaugele jõudsin! Aga jah, kõik kestab edasi. Olen nüüd mitte enam kui hamster rattas, vaid keegi kuskil hoopis kaunimas kohas pidevalt ringi jooksmas :)

Ps animetest - tutvutud Ikoku Meiro no Croisee, Honey and Clover´i ja Kimi ni Todoke´ga. Vastavalt: roosa ime, ha ha ha! tahan veel näha ja viimane... läheb eriti hinge - minul omal ajal nii hästi ei läinud, kuid nüüd nagu natuke läheb ja selle anime vaatamine tuletab mulle meelde, kui vedanud mul on.. sellega ka, et mu arvuti kõrval on mõnus kotike, milles on muuseas ka kuivatatud kirsid ;)

Ajaa vaatasin ära ka Nausicaä of The Valley of The Wind, Mu naaber Totoro ja Spirited Away: müüt, imeline võime, ilu; südamele, lapsele sees, nii võiks ollagi ja ehk õnnelikele ongi; imelised värvid, purpurpunane positiivsuslaks paari toreda meeldetuletusega. Nii.. blogger ei luba rohkem pilte lisada (enne vigade parandust: rihkem pilte vaadata) - seega soovitan lihtsalt neid animefilme vaadata, kasvõi kümnendat korda, aga ikkagi :D

Praegu aga minu poolt ilusat ööd! Kellele tegusat ja kellele head, kellele eriti sügavat, rahulikku und
*** :)

Something... refreshing

All the Hemispheres (Hafez)

by Paulo Coelho on August 26, 2010

Leave the familiar for a while.
Let your senses and bodies stretch out


Like a welcomed season
Onto the meadows and shores and hills.

Open up to the Roof.
Make a new water-mark on your excitement
And love.

Like a blooming night flower,
Bestow your vital fragrance of happiness
And giving
Upon our intimate assembly.

Change rooms in your mind for a day.

All the hemispheres in existence
Lie beside an equator
In your heart.

Greet Yourself
In your thousand other forms
As you mount the hidden tide and travel
Back home.

All the hemispheres in heaven
Are sitting around a fire
Chatting

While stitching themselves together
Into the Great Circle inside of
You.




_______________________________

Hāfez (1325/26–1389/90) was a Persian poet.
From: ‘The Subject Tonight is Love’



I simply love this poem. This poem has the feeling that I thrive for - a free, out of word refreshing feeling. A breeze trough the heart, that makes You smile. Thank You...

Db 9

Morning, already.. how did I make it to bed... "Life remains mysterious", she said out loud with a grin. She put on her silken morning coat and white fuzzy slippers and went to the kitchen, put the kettle on and entered a glass gallery adjacent to the kitchen. There she checked her most precious - her plants, mostly orchids. Medicinal plants, some fruit bearers and other edible ones, rarities and more... topped with her favourite orchids filling air with sweet intoxicating aroma. Dattebayo took a deep breath - she had missed this the most. "Rain, you did very well. If you do not mind, I´ll leave it to you now on", saying it she raised and cupped her hand. A pool of water gathered into her palm, shining - smiling. The smile of water. Then it disappeared. Tea water is ready.

Äripäeva pärl

~Tõlkimiseks vajalikud vahendid: VS, ahjuroop

~Eesti keelde kaks sõna: ühispinnas ja muruvõre

~Queen´ipalavik

:D

Loli

Täna sai inspiratsiooni otsitud netiavarustest, natuke kogetust jagaks ka siin :)

Mu lemmik loli pilt v üks lemmikutest

Animehuviga haakuv, meeldivalt selle maiguline

Ebamaiselt ilus

Kaunid ehted

ehk sees põksub kuidagi rõõmsamalt, moe ja loomingu ilu on nähtud :)

~kõik fotod peale esimese on leitud Google otsinguga "victorian fashion"

I am who I am
fear, a wish to hide
to be secret
not seen...
now there may be
more of me seen
than ever
So fear remains for a moment more
to say farewell, thus we, friends part ways



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6dpxTMLgNOI&feature=autoplay&list=AVGxdCwVVULXfUgPvhUYLe8K1vwXfe25qZ&lf=list_related&playnext=6 mängis hetk tagasi Secret Gardeni´i playlist´is.. juhuslikkus - laul nimega My Land

Db 8

"Leidsingi su üles. Täpselt selline koht nagu eeldasin, küll natuke tolmusem", ütles ta tõmmates sõrmega üle pruuni süü, astudes üha lähemale; kuni oli seal, kummardumas tema kohal, vahe nende vahelt järsult kadumas ... Ta ärkas, keha külmast higist märg.

Sry about the too obvious:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XAi3VTSdTxU

Teismeea lemmiklaul, vaatasin üle väga pika aja, vist pole kaua kuulnud ka :) Hea, jätkuvalt. Üks sõna: KEEFIR & aitäh, isa, et mulle History kinkisid :D

Db 7

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=USFr5VeLQ2o

... ja läheb lahti. Öö unetutel tundidel kirja pandu koos kirjutamishetke emotsioonidega:


Ta lasi silmadel ringi käia. Kõik oli nii nagu kirjas. Muutusteta. Kraadi pealt sama. Veendunud olude sobivuses, ta alustas. Sulas ühte tuulemassiivi, võttes üle kontrolli selle üle ja isoleeris selle ümbritsevast õhust. Sihtpunkt oli vaikne, väljaarvatud katseasutus - viissada pea nõrkenud südant kaikusid ta verele vastu. Rinnus pistis teravalt, see ei üllatanud enam, kuid... lootus oli ju jäänud, olenemata olnust. Olgu. Vaikus, nüüd on vaikus. Ta liikus kokkupõrkekohta, võttis endasse sealt paiskunud mürgi ja kandis selle Sarayele, mille ta samaaaegselt samuti ümbritsevast isoleeris, seda vastandlike tuuleliikumistega. Piiritletul alal oli mürgil tugevam mõju. Keskkonnasõbralik, seegi - paari tunniga lagunesid komponendid ohututeks aineteks ning "roheliste" teadlaste taotluse järgi ei mõjutanud pinnast ega põhjavett. Dattebayo pilk oli peatunud ühel puuoksal, millel olevad lehed söövitas ära tugev toksiin nagu oleksid tuhanded näljased nähtamatud röövikud seda söönud, kui õhus kaikusid sõnad: "Erganon oleks rahul", lausuja sammud kajasid hetke ja kadusid kaugustesse. Db ei reageerinud, ei liigutanud kuni mürk oli oma ohtlikud omadused minetanud.
Kõrbelaagri baashoone eest kostis mürtsatus, relvadega välja jooksnud valvurid nägid, kuis kukkumisel purunenud puidust kastist voolas välja ...raamatuid. Sündmuskohta kohale jõudnud Sakura võttis maast ühe, lehitses seda ja leidis tuttava märke, ning hõikas sündmuspaika kogunenutele: "Tulge, meil on tööd!" Mõnikümmend kilomeetrit eemal prantsatas maha ja mattus liiva Dattebayo. Kuue päeva pärast ajas ta end üles, käpukil ahmis ta õhku. Kehatalitused normliseerumas... koed on taastunud. Hingata on valus, veel oma paar tundi on parem liikumatuna olla. Hämaruses püüdis ta istuda, selg andis end tunda, aga juba sai. Käed ümber põlvede vaatas ta, kuidas üksteise järel süttisid tähed indigosinises taevas, kuidas laotus tumenes peaaegu mustaks. Ta ei teinud märkama, kui väike fennek sooja otsides ta pusa alla puges. Taeva kahvatades asus ta teele, enne mässinud fenneki salli sisse. Tundes end valmis olevat, andis ta endale käskluse, mis teda enim rõõmustas: "Koju", ja kõrb jäi tühjaks.

Liaanidega köidetud luuk kägises avamisel, redelit mööda laskudes sai ta pinnu sõrme, "Aih". Jõudnud alla, läks ta pesunurga juurde ja pesi haava lahtise vee all. Liiga sügaval, las tuleb ise välja. Keha saab hakkama. Ta tundis endasse voolavat kodu õdusust ja pisihäältest tulvil sõbralikku vaikust, järkjärgult saabuvat rahu. Kuidas siin ka asjad on... oh, vihm on tubli olnud - tõusva päikese kiirtes helkis õhus kerge udu. Nüüd võtan asjad enda kätte, võid puhata. Dattebayo läks vanaaegse robustse, mõne veidike kohatuna tunduva ülipeene nikerdusega kirjutuslaua juurde, vajus selle taga olevasse pehmesse tugitooli ja lõi lahti enda ees oleva logiraamatu, et lühidalt üles märkida viimastel päevadel toimunu. Peale poole lehekülje kirjutamist ta uinus, vihm aga jätkas oma tööd, lastes tal rahulikult magada.

Db 6

"Ema!" hüüatas Sode ja langes Datebayole kaela. Tema vaoshoitus murdus tunnete tulvas, pisarad aina voolasid mööda ta palgeid. Ema paitas vaikselt nutva lapse pead, lasi tal vajuda ta sülle ja nutta, nuuksuda - kui kaua pidi ta seda sees hoidma, kui kaua... . Teised ruumis vaatajad tegutsesid vaikselt, et mitte rikkuda harrast hetke. Teati nende lugu, teati Db´d nagu olid teda teadnud läbi pärimuste nende emad ja isad. Kõrbenaine, kes toob vee saades veeks; kes valvab nende üle ja on alati seal, kus on nemad, sest nende sekka on jäänud tema veri, üheks nende seast, alati abivalmis kätepaari ja hea nõuandjana. Lapsed vaatasid emade seelikute tagant piiludes üksisilmi, vaatasid seda rahulikku kurbust ja soojust kiirgavat nägu ja käsi silitamas pruune lokke, vaikselt, õrnalt, kaua.

Sju insegel

Tears tearing up another mask, one of one too many
fears still creeping near, ghoststories in mid-day´s glow
lost
sacred seals cover the depths of me, -
not to touch until death threatens
unbelievable lies to that day represent truth, doubts wisdom
days pass, more than a past, less than a future
All stays, never goes, all is, letting us be, one & only
more than seen, ever heard, always known
seek, never find; search, get lost; run, forget how to stop
Look inwards, grow
Look, a blink of an eye facing eternity first, end of the road
a raindrop flows from forehead to nose
rises a storm, wiping dams & fleas
Eradication of lairs of lies wave away, whirling, curling
Eyes on the banks, enjoying the scenery,
beat is the glimmer, Sun is the heart


- this is Something from the past. Just felt like adding it.
Link: the first line means to me these days... the constant fear of dispraise, disapproval and blame in the voices of those I look up to - this is a legacy of my past, years of school violence. I have come this far to tell, that these are ghosts and the dark is gone.
So.. that was a hint about my person, a bit of the teller´s tale.

Db 5

Missing... you can not miss for someone for so long. At some point it becomes something else. Not a pain, but a different sensation. It changes the entire being a bit paler, she has thought.. like a plant grown in less light. Taints the eyes too. Hers rain. As long as she remembers, her eyes have rained. Sode felt a tear falling down her cheek, she dried it with the back of her hand and finished the glass. "It has got cloudy. Can not see anything now", and she went to the sleeping barracks to add firewood. "This is enough... she must not overdo it", she thought, she is still in training. The reason she can not stay, is the training. Unstable, dangerous. The crater earlier... She shook her head like scaring off fear like flies, tidied her clothes and hair, stood up and calmed her face - time to go to the others, to her.

Db 4

"Would you like some supper?" Sakura asked. Dattebayo nodded and Sakura made a gesture to the staff, who told the cooks to set another plate, for Leader was joining them. To note the special occasion bottles of wine were brought to the table. Dattebayo smiled, for times were scarce and wow, they still made this wine... Lacuma valley in used-to-be SA. Sipping soup, she casually asked: "Where is Sode? I thought I saw her with you earlier." - "Probably setting up a room for you to stay tonight. She misses you." After a moment of silence, Db looked up at Sakura. She had left them alone for a long time, having no choice wasn´t the point. Sakura, concentrated on eating, looking so strong and straight minded, must feel the same way... "I can not stay long, but I can wait till dawn". From the doorway Sode was looking at them. They look so alike, both stubborn as oxes - Sakura sure got her spine. A staff member noticed her and gave her a glass of wine. Sode thanked her and went outside to drink in solitude, watching the stars in the dark sky, clouds passing, once hiding, once showing...

to bleed out is what i want
a red dawn honest and true
for the symbols to fall down
wind to be freed from words
trees dancing trough waves
for non to be kept in silence
and secrets unwillingly
hearts to speak silently, softly
reaching each other
oh, hear and smile
letting my tightly gripped hands
go... drop it into the grass
for it has served it´s purpose
and so have i

Tales from Earthsea

http://www.animecrazy.net/tales-from-earthsea-movie/

Draakonid ja inimesed olid kunagi üks - nii hea oli seda taas kuulda, draakoneid näha. Vaatan-kuulan lõppu uuesti. Aave laul :) ehk laul minu jaapani-tee algusest. Hing ärkab, sest temaga räägitakse taas tema enese keeles. Aitäh.

Db 3

"She usually is not a comedian... so it still has effects", thought Sakura and went up to greet the young maiden, who after a hello-hug asked: "Something new?" and this too sounded alarming for "new" has a different meaning in this corner of existence. "You look younger", was the answer said with a hint of worry in the voice. Sakura lifted the girl´s chin gently to look into her eyes rainy gray, a bit sad - no, still the same as they were a hundred years ago. The face and body had got more youthful, the manners and gestures too, but the eyes spoke the same, sang the same tune, similar to her own... Waking from thought, she asked: "What brings you here, Dattebayo?" - "I heard of some stirrings" - "The shoot-down yesterday? It was nothing, but if... we will... no meaning on getting intel - what is going on? " - "Bad." Sakura looked at Dattebayo, she felt something scratching inside. Dattebayo understood her and said: "Saraye is falling". Sakura patted her shoulder and went to the barracks, where she entered to the Net: "Draw out of Saraye. Db." In hours as many as possible had been notified and evacuated. Next morning Western Union used poison in a clashdown against an heavily armed underground Nazi grouping, winds carried the toxic cloud to Saraye, yesterday a town with a million inhabitants located 15 miles from the battleground. Left a ghost city no one noticed the now empty Treason Hall nor the music and sound of dancing feet on a floor now wooden.

Friends

~15.50 from Bleach

Muudatus. Lehe servast sai eemaldatud: Welcome to this blog of an animeloving artsy-crafty rambler rambling about life around and in. Surf, dive, enjoy, curse and cruise trough this maze of a being on screen, find and lose track of what was said and what was meant. Thank You for coming and thank You for going, my Reader. "Outside is the reflection of the inside"

~Mustkassmystik alias Apelsinitiiger alias Hel, here just Rambler

Häälestus

Michael Jackson Man in The Mirror

- saab endale mõningaid asju meenutatud. Hea tunne on.

no. 6 ehk Nezumi

Eelnevad 2 päeva oli minu elus esikohal no. 6 -nimeline anime. Mõtlemapanev sisu, äärmiselt liigutavad stseenid, ilusad ja tuttavlikud tegelased, kes meenutavad kaht poissi ühest teisest jutust ning sündiski nälg, isu, mille tulemusena sai tunde ekraani taga istutud ning seejärel sirgema selja ja natuke selgema pilguga selle tagant tõustud, tegutsema hakatud. Juba materialiseerinud tulemuseks on siinsamas blogis ilmunud 2 Dattebayo ehk aastaid mu peas kõvakettaruumi võtnud lühi?jutu osa. Dattebayo lugu sarnaneb niimõneski no.6 stsenaariumiga - ju seepärast ta minus taaselustuski ja teiegi ette jõuab. Lõpetuseks soovitan no.6 animet neile, kes tahavad maailmale vaadata veel ühe nurga alt ja meenutada: ilu võib end avaldada ka kõige koledamates kohtades.

Db 2

... niivõrd harjunult, et neile ei jäänud märkamatuks ei kraater, paar uppilöödud hoonet ja oo jah, plekktünni taga saapapaar mitte kõige õnnelikuma omanikuga - seda olenemata sellest, et vaatepilt püsis ei rohkem ega vähem kui olematu hetke. Lööklaine, mis oli kraatri loonud, rullus tagasi, kust ta oli alguse saanud, kadudes olematusse koos kraatri ja purustustega ning taas oli päikese all kõik endine - nojah, pruunides nahksaabastes armeenlane ajas end roostes tünni toel püsti ja tundis end natuke uimasena. Tolmupilve hajudes sai selle varjust järkjärgult nähtavaks naisekuju - kesk hägu tõstis ta käe, et võtta näo eest seda kaitsev sall ning raputas oma pikad pulstunud rastapatsid kammitsaist vabaks. Meduusaga sarnanev boheemlaslikes riietes sihvakas noor naine lükkas üles pealaele päikseprillid, mis liikudes öösiniselt välgatasid, ja helk ta silmades lausus: "Tervist"

Dattebayo

Kõrvaklapid peas, sall ja juuksed kergelt tuuleõhus liikumas justkui suikund, rahulik - nii ta seal oli kesk sügavat sinist kui laps ema süles, kuni: "Kohal." Klapid peast ja alla Maa poole, tuhisedes nagu komeet läbi ilmaruumi, mis oli olnud tema ja maapinna - lõputu liiva ja vaevu äratuntavate, maastikku sulanduvate algeliste elamute ning kahe silmapaari vahel. Vaatepildiga harjunult jälgisid nad tema teed

Ilus koht

~2.30 ... tuul

Käik Sügise Südamesse

... ehk seekord leidsin ta Tartust, õigemini sealt sain ta päris kätte - eks mujalgi ta jooksis mu ees, pildudes päiksekiiri kuldkollasest sabast. Ta jooksis minust läbi ja ajas südame segamini, vahepeal mattis hinge ja ootamatult keeras lahti kõik salauksed ja korraks lõhnasid ka umbsed kapid ja keldrid rooside järgi. Sa ära pahanda, mu kallis, et selle hõngu nüüd Sulle saadan väikeses laekas kuldvõtmekesega sinilinnu kaelas - hääd püüdmist, mu laps!

ANIME GA TAISUKI!

...ehk kellegil pole jaapani fonte alla laetud ja kirjutab romanjis.
Täna sain vaadatud viimased osad ülivahvast animest Lovely Complex ehk LoveCom, tutvustus http://www.animecrazy.net/lovely-complex-anime/
ja me loves!!!!!!! Seletaks sisust vähe, kuid märksõnadeks oleksid ... keskkool, sõprus, kompleksid, tunded ja gambarimasu! :D Selline hea romantiline anime (mainin, et viisakas mõttes romantiline), mida vaadates saab südamest naerda ja natuke ka nutta. Soovitan! :D :D :D Pildikesi ka, mis kõik leitud google otsinguga "anime lovely complex pic":

Huvitava artikli leidsin:

http://www.postimees.ee/405069/jaapanis-tuleb-kevad-seekord-teisiti-sudametu-lumega/

ehk natuke infot huvitava riigi kohta huvitavalt inimeselt.

Lolita Fashion in Estonia

http://lolita.ouran.eu/

Eile sai avalikkusele avatud kauaoodatud lolitamoe koduleht ja seda sündmust ka tähistatud. Mõned tunnevad avalehe kritseldustes ära minu kätetöö ja tõesti, mul on au olla selle tiimi liige - kuigi jah, jään neile kaunitaridele kommete ja kauniduse poolt alla - aga ju ma kasvan :D Mu lolid (ja ka trolid) - aitäh, et olete mu ellu tulnud ja nii palju ilu toonud, see on lihtsalt uskumatu. Tänud ka selle eest, et saan joonistada, et see osa minust saab elada ja rõõmustada. Tänud niipalju muu eest, mida ma ei oska sõnadesse panna.
Muuseas, käsi kiheleb :)

Killuke sügist

Siin pildid sügisest, mille leidsin ühe haldjaneiu facebookist, sealt on pärit ka blogi pealkirjatagune foto hostast. Ütleks veel niipalju, et neis piltides on miskit, mis mulle hinge läheb - valgus, tonaalsus, temaatika, vaatenurk - ei tea. Miski see on ja see on ilus ja valus ja suur. Kindlasti lisan tema fotosi ka tulevikus, tema lahkel loal loomulikult ;) :D

Remo´26911: Moon

Vahepeal tunnen, et olen tundetuks muutunud. Õigemini, olen end veendunud, et ma eksisin ja eksin ning tõenäoliselt teen seda alati. Tõsi, ma ei taha eksida, sisimas. Ma ei taha olla külm ja kalk, kuid sellisena ma end tunnen - kaljuna või kaljul, üksikul ja kõrgel seisjana, mis on sama kui põlvitada sügavaimas orus, sest see on olla üksi. Mul pole enam mu tiibu, sest ma olen kaotamas usku... mõned suled veel lendlevad mu ümber.. unistusest unustusse

voices afraid speaking threats to ears
(wanting to hear, wanting to clear)
phantoms shackled and blind
(holders of divine)
bear poison to lips cracked
(born to bloom, as red as a rose)
and thus young withers to dust
-
saviors may come, princes and magic
may not be gone, be more than fantasies
so may be true, that poison is cure
phantoms teachers and a death a birth
or simple delusion of a weary mind
an aching heart, a running nose
two feet going to bed, for sleepiness
concours delusions, crafting illusions

Tervitused kuskilt küünlavalgelt animest kõlavast toast valgete suure lillemustriga pitskardinate tagant. Kuidas läheb? Nohuselt? Töiselt?
Siin küll. Muretsedes, rapsides, vigu tehes ja ikkagi aina edasi ei tea kuhu. Oh jah. Naeratan - meenuvad mu sõbrad, tugivõrk. Saab hakkama.
Hoiatan kohe, et blogisissekandeid saab edaspidigi olema vähe, harvalt, vähemalt arvan hetkel nii... aga kes teab ;) Luulet... võibolla. Täna küll värisen siin väsimusest ja külmast. Elan One Piece´le kaasa ehk üritan külmale mitte mõelda, muud aga eriti ei suuda. Vahel meenub vaadates mu enda lugu, olnu, ammune, samas siin ja praegu minus.... sellest see külm ja kuum, mis sekundi murdosa vältel vahelduvad.
Küünla kohal on käel soe. Soojendavaid tulukesi on kõikjal. Maailm särab.

Head alanud ööd~~

I HAVE SOUND!

& The 1st thing I wanted to hear

SAVAGE GARDEN - ANIMAL SONG

The best.. FOR ME :D

Ps family time ;) :D

Crazy

.. as normal, the first week of uni (the 2nd year btw) has been crazy. Still is, continuing craziness until tomorrow or maybe not. Got a busy weekend coming, meaning no **m (sry again, mates!) and oh, yes, I´ll get sound! Finally, OMG, anime, music, youtube... crazy, how wonderful this thought of having sound is! Plus, my mom and bro are coming, me happy. Has flowers, a radio, windows and light and yes, a life outside this room and computer. Including mates, great ones. Thank You & You too, strangers.
Good night!~~

For the sleepless:
http://love4art.deviantart.com/art/Autumn-rain-156564442


A little snack:

& a Feast for the eyes and soul:

Now, sleepy? Hopefully, at least smiling :)

Nii, käed valusad, sõrmed varsti villis. Selgus, et üks 3 h pikkune loeng täna, mis kohustuslik. Pikk oli, näpud villis, kuid teadmistejanuline-minake ülihappy ja seda õnne lisab veel see, et kingitus 99,9 % õnnestus ja selle 0,01% parandan homme :) Praegu õpin kanjisid ja kuulan Vikerraadiot, mis ka igati hariv ja meeldiv. Kena õhtu jätku! ~~

(ps my 222th post!!!)

Uued uksed on avatud, vanad teist päeva kinni võrdub "jess, tehtud!" ja plaanimuutused. Lähiaja plaanid, need kaugeleulatuvad on hetkel kõrvalised. Saab vihma käes jalutada ;) :D

falling in, trough, moist
drop by drop inside, out
it´s alright, peace seeping trough
sounds mellow, quiet
rustling, rumbling far
lightning strikes, flash brings day in night
it is broken
the air is cleared, fresh
eyes vivid reflect the aftermath
dewdrop and the moon

Septembri esimene õhtu

Kuulan sama laulu teadmisega, et vennas sai täna esimest korda linnaloa ja nad käisid just neid *hulle* kuulamas. Super ja kunagi näen ise nad ka ära. Vau.
Aa kirjutan oma uue arvuti toel, muude kinkide seas on miski suur minust vanem mind ootamas - mu oma kodu ootamas. Tuju on hea. Täpselt mu akna all oli vikerkaar, terve kaar. Jah - sadas vihma ja päike paistis, sügis säras. Imeline see päev oligi, ilus.
Aitäh, mu sõbrad, õnnesoovide eest. Kallistan. Rõõmu!
S: sünnipäevalaps

Septembri esimene hommik

Esmalt, muusika mängima
U2 Beautiful Day
& kui ma õieti mäletan, on need ehtsad lennukid :P Hullud! :D

Üritan kirjutada, koer süles. Ta ei anna mulle rahu. Saab ka muusikat kuulata :D
No nii, tänasest on juba niimõndagi rääkida. Nt kõne, mis mind äratas. Mangod, mitte mandariinid. Mandarinid tulevad :) Fb-s palju punaseid numbrikesi. Koer on rahulik. Palju seeni Nooruse metsas, ilus hommikune taevas. Koolijütsid. Paar tükki olid tekli koju unustanud :D Vana usklik naine kesk oma lilli mulle epistlit lugemas. Vastan:
What you don't have you don't need it now
What you don't know you can feel it somehow
What you don't have you don't need it now
You don't need it now, you don't need it now
koos lennukite kõrvulukustava müraga, mis tõenäoliselt tema maailma ei kostaks. Ta ei taha paha. Ta on armas, kuid lämmatav... minusuguse lillelapse jaoks. Kes sai täna 24-aastaseks, kes alles on alustanud oma erialaõpinguid ja ei ole normipärane, kuid on elus ja suudab naeratada. Ma elan. Ja jumaldan tema aeda, nii et lillearmastajad - meie ja Kungla tänava nuka peal see on, imede aed paradiisiõunadega :D Kui võimalust on, nähke ära! Kingitustest veel - eile sain teada, et meil käib nüüd Sirp ja täna märkasin, et mõne patsikummivaba päeva tulemusena on mul üks loomulik lokk :D

Augusti viimane õhtu

Täna sain sellest teada, et täna nii on.. TV3st, enne Forrestere. Jaman siin kooliasjadega, täna kanjipäev. Varsti töötan jälle nati esseekäikudega, kuid jah, keskendun One Piece´le ja juhtideeks on oni no ko ehk "deemonite lapsed", keda kõnealuses animes on kolm. Kenasti sobib teaduslikuks raamiks üks ingliskeelne oniraamat ja kõik sujubki :D & kanji on lahe.
Nüüd mõned augustimõtted:
- Õunapuud näevad öösel tähistaeva moodi välja, ainult et nad on lähemal ja suuremad
- Sõjavägi pole lilleline, vaid roosiline - õigete saabasteta saavad jalad valu
- Kergem on eirata, olla eemalhoidev, keskenduda fassaadile, vaadata kõrvale - keeruline on hoolida, olla seotud, märgata sisemist, vaadata otse otsa. Elu on raske, hoolimatagi. Natuke aega süda nutab, hiljem seda enam ei kuule. Mõni äkki kunagi kuulab...
- Tuhkatriinud, pange end valmis - on kõrvitsaaeg! Ime on nurgataga ja ootab hetke, et sa teda ei märka ning äkki on maailm uus. I m e l i ne , lihtsalt imeline :)
- must ja valge, liblikas ja roos, kuu ja vikerkaar -

... hoides muresid süles kui mänguhimulisi kassipoegi
süüdates valgust ikka ja jälle tuulises toas, vihkamata tormiilma
kõndides vikerkaartel ja jalutades Eedeni aias, löömata teisitimõtlejaid risti
austades vaenlast, meest head teispool kellegi tõmmatud piiri
inime imeline imede seas, tähe vend, oja õde - armasta, üdini
ümber käe on seotud kee, tants läheb lahti läbi pilvede, päikesed naeravad
- on augusti viimane õhtu, sume sumisev, kuskil on lasud, kusagil sünd
punaseid niite veab päike, pisaratega peseb saatus, pühadust pärjab
õitsev tõelisus, karm ja uhke, õrn ja hooliv, kassikesed süles, lõngakerad veeremas
veerele, alla, üle, sisse, pilveniinde valevasse ....

Konverentsilt tagasi kodus, konspektideta, taastuvate närvidega, imeliste mälestustega ja süllepugeva koerakesega ning lakkamatu (no, pisikesi pausikesi pidava*) vihmaga. Üldkokkuvõttes on kõik hästi. Saan selle essee kuidagi ka märkmeteta tehtud, veidi aega veel on. Saan siin olla. Hingel on hea. Päevakübarad, floksid, peiulilled, saialilled, kuldkaer, petuuniad ja roosa nelkroos... mets, arooniad - mu kodused ja vihmapladin... mõtted. A-neljad täis mõttekäike, ahelaid ja tuge, pisikest lihtsat ja armast - päikesekiiri :) Vihmal pole täna kurba häält.

Kaks peotäit lilli

Sain täna varajase sünnipäevakingi - kaks peotäit lilli, osa neist vaasi värvikirevateks bukettideks (soojad beebiroosad pellargoonid ja kollased-oranzid saialilled), osa neist alge oma väikesele potimajandusele (tumelilla-erkfuksiaroosa ja valge ja helerohelise kirju lehega kirinõgesed ning saialilleseemned), mida võimaldab uue korteri lai aknalaud ja seda lõunakaare köögikeses. Kirinõgesed, pellargoonid, kotike saialilleseemned - see on mu tõeline varandus... Märgilise tähendusega on A3 mapp ja selle sisu, mis täna konstruktiivset kriitikat sai - Ta ju ses asjas mu partner :D Nosima nüüd. Küll kirjutan jälle, pikemalt, aga praegu magus, ajutoit ja õppetöö.
... et õnnistus ei kleepuks keele külge

Pole mu kimp, kuid.. ilus! ~

Rain

eg the reason, why I am writing. Stuck in the library behind the computer, blog open, rain sounding off the windows. Music. Another wrk day, hopefully the walls&paint takeoff. Second time - the first was in the hostel, pants turned inside out and oh yes, an other pair of new fantastic ones got bleached from black to rusty red. Those were the days, the utmost stupid and fun and terrible ones.
I saw the Star of those days at Freedom Square the other day, he has gotten older. Suiting to a star, he was wearing yellow. Pretty tall for an elfy still.
Past days.. Coelho. Alchemist and then The witch of Portobello. I guess I am quite high on that dangerous stuff right now. Dangerous, because it woke up something dorment and a tat scary.
Anyways, today is about paint and a busride in the opposite direction.
And rain.
Happy rainbows,
Hel

Eyes

... saw my brother and the Dalai lama and are happy.

In Tallinn!

I have a dog in my place or some days, quite odd to have the little ctitter in the big town - mom is here too, but she is not afraid of the traffic (she is only when driving), some wallpaper is down, the moon was golden tonight and there are bats, Ni! And THE candies in Kaubaait ;) So, off again, a walk trough the Old Town home.
All the best,
Hel

Päevakübar

Ideekilluke.
Haiglate, vanadekodude jms selliste asutuste aedades peaks olema palju päevakübaraid, sest need meeldivad väga liblikatele. Nendes aedades ei tormata ringi, ei diskusseerita valjult - seal ollakse, vaadatakse. Näiteks päevakübaratel toimetavaid liblikaid.

Lapsed! Nii, olgu neid lilli kõikjal. Liblikaarmastajaid võib ju leida kõikjalt, kärarikkast lasteaiahoovist ja bossanovast helisevast kohvikust - silmapaar, eemalolev, pilk lillel ja liblikal.



Augustihommik aiast V´13811

ONE PIECE vaadatud!

I watched the last episode out today, tomorrow the new one... OMG, I made it :D

Tiiger/ Tiger 8-4 Bud Blake
- my point exactly! and I think, that it does not!
+ you can eat´em :D

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VfAtN3JvSlw&NR=1
-oh, kuidas te kasvate päikese poole .. olen kaugele jäänud. Siin... aga on päikesekarva lilled

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Walking on broken glass - it was on the radio, the volume went up - fav song. Annie Lennox. Warm music, sunshine golden orange.

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A True Loli Day - have been drawing like crazy and I am loving it :D