~~*~

Happy Goings and Comings! Lots of Love, Freely and FreeWillingly,
Õnnelikku Minemisi ja Tulemisi, Vabalt ja VabaTahtlikult,
~~Yours sincerely,
Aoi ( ->Massao)

with faith in D

Honestly

Vegan or not

- not, at least not now. The thing is, that ethically I am pro-not eating meat, but eggs and milk, that do not require hurting animals --- btw the only farming that fits into my tiny head is organic farming --- I would not give up so easily. The so called realistic slap is to me in the price and actually the fear. I have been afraid of so many things and have done so much just to run away from my fears & sry for being poetical - I fear my dreams. My fear is that what has been keeping me from having my own organic farm, from bringing out Ama to the public, from writing. My fears have made me weak, for my energy has been consumed by the ongoing restraint of despair - I am not living my dreams. m a student, who´s not working, thus I have to keep my family´s financial state in mind and based on the family´s values... they´re not vegans, they do not think of things like this, b´cause they are stuck in their own ongoing circles. & I feel that I owe them too much already, so.. I am quietly building my own life and then I´d be free to do what I really want to, being a vegan for instance.

~ˇwhy writing about such things-- b´cause Fb connects and somewhere far there is a very dear person to me, who is a vegan and she had posted this http://www.takepart.com/article/2011/12/27/james-cromwell-you-dont-own-another-creature, to what I posted as a response: "this reminded me of Beast King, an old tv series, where there was a constant polemic about a lion not belonging to the Beast King, he often had to repeat, that the lion is his friend and does as the lion him/herself wants".

Why bring this lead here -- this blog here is a platform for me to write a bit closer to the readers --meaning You :D and for me to dwell in the whys .. Beast King and the lion are the basis for my the human(-like creature) and animal(-like creature)/ nature relations in my stories, mostly trough the horse-rider perspective - the Angels and the Dgeres, the horseman´s country´s draft of White Mother. I love horses .. and has a revieling fact - I find them transdental, but they are real and yet need our care.. mustangs yes, but to high mentality ethical and caring riders-herders-companions a big yes too.

& I do live in cotton, anime-cotton - such monstrosoties as mass animal and plant production does still exist. I´ll try to climb upward´n out and .. who knows :)

Until then - I missed Bleach yesterday.. my bro thought that I had a second set of speakers.. well, I don´t :P :D


Good bye and happy all :D




Ps no horse yet, but a mouse! A mighty DragonMouse :D

Maya :P

Replaced coffee after having a coffee-sad 24.12.11. I likes it :D

Sylla Soup

Not a cooking blog, but I do cook sometimes and so I´d like to share my today´s little maybe-my-original :P

So.. it is based on salted red fish fillet and soy sauce. The rest belongs to the all-there-is-at-home cache. We happened to have a lot of potatoes, a big carrot, lots of onions and garlic, black pepper (not ground, wholes :D), red paprika powder, a little lemon, tangerine and cinnamon too. All veggies-and fish in as chuncks or rings and after a big boil and some little :P boiling on a slow fire (we have an old-fashioned stove too) voilà! ~~ a soup, what would if I had the rights to name it be named Sylla Soup, because a lovely friend of our family Sylla brought us that delightful fish :D

So.. if you like sour-sweet-soy´n fish stuff, give it a go :)

OMG Bleach

http://itsbleach.tumblr.com/archive


for instance... http://itsbleach.tumblr.com/post/9221349749

Blue mark of Onna : An animecrazy blogger´s likes and laughs

http://mori9.tumblr.com/

ehk siia ei saa pilte pildina lisada, seega ... ;)
meaning that I can not add pics here as pics, so... ;)

Manly scarf-guy & CO

http://bleach-and-gintama.tumblr.com/tagged/byakuya

my now fav place on the web :D

http://bleach-and-gintama.tumblr.com/tagged/gin

...

http://s3.amazonaws.com/data.tumblr.com/tumblr_ltjnpbXVnN1r1emrgo1_1280.jpg?AWSAccessKeyId=AKIAJ6IHWSU3BX3X7X3Q&Expires=1325025857&Signature=a6Pzhvnu6AaKLVuCmzTwpP1L3us%3D

the only devil welcome in my dreams

& with onna - one of the relations sought in this work of Kubo, who focuses on things other than love

ETV Miniscule Jõulusääsk

~ filled chocolates by the fire.. a total AWW :D

Poppyred dreamings

Soar eyes rubbed
tiny hands and mighty wings
Sun takes back a petal, flaming
A shaft of light
peeks trough the curtains
a cup of coffee, a mug of tea
a piece of cake, a breakfast in bed
Pink flowers falling down
creamy yellow sunspots playing
with the baby blue wind
in fields green walking hand
in hand the Duckie and the Poppy

Apelsinide soojus

Laps õhinal jooksmas
Piibelehtedest võluriteni
merelahelised tiibade vahed
tiibadeta, kuid ära lase petta
Sooned sinised ja paelad punased
kassid ja kosmos ja kosmosed
niidid hargnemas, tilgake verd
naeratusega segamini helkimas kroonil
kreemvalged pitsid ja seot´ käed
lilla pääga poiss põõramas ümber
kaks õde hoitud ja hoidmas
Kõik saab kunagi liblikaks
uut lehte avamas koidikul Neo
v keegi teine v kõik koos
kuskil, kus on moone ja
päevalilli ~
Apelsinidega korv kuskil
jäetud päkapiku poolt lävele
kesk heleõrnu lavendlivälju

Sad

1 I´ve lost my home and family as my final stronghold... .

2. Truce, but .. just a truce :D

Merri Chrisumasu! Häid jõule :D

So.. play, joyful Hearts! :D Mängige, rõõmsad Südamed! Ureshii kokoro, asobimasu!

~~Sry, if my J grammar fails me :P :D

Aoi Tori ~~

Today I merged my Blogger Profile with my Google Profile, losing my movie list here.. and got a photoalbum consisting of all the photos ever posted on this blog ( an amazing Christmas Present :D Thank You!) & I got carried away... meaning more than one album found by my Google+ Account... so... if You like my taste in pics... ;)

Orange Vanilla Marshmellows ! :D

http://annesfood.blogspot.com/2011/12/holiday-candy-orange-vanilla.html


...

Knocking new doors

SoarAn
Member Since A day ago

Ama

This is a sprout :P meaning that I have wanted to speak about my dream Ama for some time and this is a reminder to myself to do so :D

BTW

...

I made my resolve ;) :D or found or realised or remembered ... :D

Some beautiful Estonian music :)

Liisi Koikson Väike järv

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s_JhEHHW7_I


A LOT of great Estonian music

http://www.flightbasic.com/indigolapsed/

("Vesi üle südame" ... )


This is my playlist - great music for my Granny what she has probably never heard before :D she can not understand English, so this is a perfect chance for me to play and listen some of our music´s pearls and my own favorites :)


OK not only songs like that...


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Za8h7Z8Rka4

like this from 2 of our most beloved sons (ok, this kind of language, ... but it is TRUE!) - even my granny is missing those travellers (or is one here and going back to the other soon... I do not read newspapers etc I watch anime :P) - they are the kind whose music bonds generations, from toddlers to 88 year olds :P love them, me too :D



A surprise
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NWsmOLm-H-Y&feature=related
... :)



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JtmrKG1fHO0


an amazing song recorded at my fav TV show "Tähelaev" what brings stars down to Earth, brings hearts closer :)



Special among the specials

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2ipMBCTDpPU&feature=related




A change of tongue

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2QciKuyGWm8&feature=related



& back

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MmlGBbgAZm4

carried by this voice into my past, memories.. one of the most beautiful and saddest voices.. :)

OP again :D _ IKITAI!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2NsLYUx-uZk
AWW ! :D

&

So!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pHkqJKipdG4&feature=related

... moving :) teary again. Watching OP I keep remembering things heard-read-known: Japan is not democratic, there has been one honest Prime Minister - Honest Miki and he was killed, women lose medical injurance when they divorce and their kids too, the horrors committed in China, the use of animated series Momotaro to grow a generation for war, 2 atomic bombs, examination hell, suicides among the weakest in society - kids and women, kid killers, the making of "oni" from not Japanese ethnic tribes to Roosevelt with horns... & I watch Luffy, the youngster striving to become Pirate King and to start a New Era, wearing-carring that hat :D what to me symbolizes humanistic values, following dreams and friendship, what does not hesitate to stand up to the whole world to save one of their own :D My fav episode: Robin´s want to live, burning flag of WG.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=endscreen&NR=1&v=FbehCqNI1qs

.. is good too :)

&

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=endscreen&NR=1&v=FbehCqNI1qs

for some laughs :D wink: Kraken ;D Luf did something Sparrow couldn´t! :P :D

+ me on Youtube:

Could someone make me an Christmas present with the Kraken battle and the finally tamed friendly Surime? :D

greenwitch87 1 sekund tagasi

... bye!

Somebody is SO happy again that it is getting scary *_* ;)

So, I guess You like it, when I write in English :D I just checked the Stats, right after checking the Comments and no worries, I get that, You´re the silent type. You´l talk eventually, trust me. Until that day comes I am going to keep on blabbering trying to avoid the fact, that I´ve asked for only positive feedback and the fact that I am not getting any of them... . Did I get You? Meaning that did I almost tease out an Comment from You? Probably not :D And true, that I got my 3 almost sisters here*, one is officially one - English grammar helps me speak my favourite cheese-hole talk so perfectly! Luv! Estonian is even better, btw, b´cause for instance we do not have "she" and "he", we have a sexless :) "tema", so writing tonight I used English to determine the character and carried on with the cheese-hole meaning abstract lose-end talk (inner speech without ""-s and so) & I do like the sound of "so" :D I am using it quite a lot :) Anyways writing made me happy... writing what - writing Db right to the grand conclusion itself :D This covers the happy end scenario. I just found out today´s date and am puzzled.. in my usual format is 211211. WoW! Amazing.
And finally coming around to the topic "Can we read it here?" -"No!" being the first answer in the morning after less than 4 hours of night´s sleep, surprisingly good or not surprising taking to count how exhausted I was :P :D I can share :D the details! what I love :P :D :D
Language: main text body English & Estonian with a pinch Japanese including a word game :P ( I am so proud of that one) and one Russian word and! I just had to use one Latin one and one of my mesh-language created about ........ 2+2+1+1 years ago :)
Length: 16 A4 filled (corrected from "willed" what sounds prettiy good! and correct too!) in my usual-not-so-tiny-not-so-big- handwriting (the reason why I am not scribbling it down here right away lies here:))
Why I like it so much :D : the two main actions are laughing and making tea. That was hilarious even to me and so.. I love it! (a wink @ lady Windy Appletree :D)
Synopsis: someone takes the active role from Db who finally starts acting her age :) I sort of unbridled my mad horses (single as I am, having to do everything by myself and pretty used to it by now) and let them run towards the happy ending, what I actually took from my first story ever - the story of Vic and A, but enough about that. There are a lot of holes in it... like the mayor time cap between the bedside-talk and shredded-glass episodes, but .. somethings are better left unsaid. Who wants to know, ask me personally or wait until I am feeling OK about writing-talking about them. NOW I am going to watch Bleach :P and to all of You not becrazed by anime....
My fav character: Ichigo Cream
!
:D

Cya!





* Aitäh Teile, et feedback´i annate! Kallistan!



Ps "One" by U2 to You two, Maria FreeBird and WildRiver - my supporting tree and my deepest obsession :P (what helped Something-Someone wipe the so called sanity from my head resulting the me writing here) an special Arigatou from the bottom of my heart. To You too, here referred as The Flow of Life including mass media, Ghost Girl, who introduced me to anime and prohibited talking about WR and to Moonlight, who has helped me to do it again and all of You around me supporting me day to day.... me so happy and lucky to have You all (L),
Hel


----> "Bleach"!!!!!!!!

Rõõm

Mu Student on tagasi! Super :D

Kõrvalepõige

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lHW6dNuogxo&feature=related

meaning: why do I like One Piece and Bleach ( Luffy & Ichigo ) - b´cause I´ve not met people like that in real life yet, who are such friends to their friends (actually... maybe I have!) and have such principles, what they actually stand by and fight for. Respect. I strongly reccomend to people who want to know more about me and/or anime to read the first pages (about what anime is) or more of http://books.google.ee/books/about/Anim%C3%A9_from_Akira_to_Princess_Mononoke.html?id=T7WhxNhF6vAC&redir_esc=y
-> I just remembered - today is Bleach´s Day! WOW... a crazy day it has been, that I remember it now, so late. Good crazy 99% :D (tänu mu armsale Päkapikule ja Lolile ;) :D )
~~ so... ;)

Veel musta jõulunädala päikseline hommik

... ehk olen taas kodumail, esimest päeva koos oma mammaga, päev kulgemas Kuressaare haigla sissedrillitud päevaplaanis ja seni on kõik olnud viis pluss, varsti suundun lõunat soojendama, st suur potitäis mõnusat kodust klimbisuppi ootab :D Isa tõi päkapikukombel hiirvaikselt ära ka mu pagasi, milleta ma eile päälinnast siia tulin, samm kerge - tavapäraste rohkete ja raskete pampude asemel oli mul kaasas vaid käekott käekotis ja üts kilekott. Suurepärane vaheldus :)
Hakkan nüüd end vaikselt arvutist eemale suunama, kuid mainin ennem, et hommikuse uinaku asemel sai kirja pandud Db Melon ja Db Melon 2, esimene inglise ja teine ehk esimese jätk eesti keeles ning kes teab, võibolla jõuan juba täna need siia sisestada ;D Hääd lõunat!

Tiivutu

See lühike kirjutis on omamoodi jätk mu eilsele* postitusele, kantud samast tundest, mis veel välja immitsemas.

kui veel pole aeg minna, siis ole. kas tõesti pole siin muud sind hoidmas? minu käed on nõrgad, sa murrad need tõkked ainuüksi pilguga. miski sind ei seo, ei, ei.... . siin pole enam midagi, siis. läksid vara, et järgi oodata ja minna. vaatasin. seisin, kuni kütked heitsin ja jooksin. sinna, kuhugi, kuhu kadusid sina. stripped my soul
võõras rada sai omaks ohvriga, hing kisti katki ja süda rinnust võeti tallele; vastu anti lubadus, et tee mind taasloob. see kajab nüüd kõiges, kõiksuse hääl, sõna, millest valgus, valgusest algus sai, et koos minuga lõppeda, kui täitund on soov sind leida, ja alata siis uuesti, sest enam meid pole üks, vaid lõpmatus. su käte vahel olen jooksmas läbi kõrbe uppumas maruses meres lendan linnuna su kohal pimeduses kobades otsides sind, kelle hääl, nägu, süda on põletatud mu hinge, tulipunane märk mu vereks ja sõnaks, silmadeks ja mereks säravaks mu ees.


* mu päevade arvestus käib mitte kellaaja, vaid une järgi

Lost Heaven - the lost, what never existed

Tere

- It has been a while. I´ve had some weird times here, today for example I ... was deeply impressed. So, this being my diary ... in a way, I´m going to jot some. First, I found out, that my latest anime finding had a sequel in form of a movie & that it has a double too, a more manga-based one. Anyways, now I am hooked.
Better said, attached to something I recognize as truth, my truth. I remembered a memory, me watching them leave and I felt the world dying around me, withering in ashes and them, going, among them the one who meant all to me. I stayed behind that time, but I know, I followed them eventually... the following I do not remember. Probably everything started for me then and here I am, a young woman, who can not figure out, why a text treatment machine has been given a human form.
That anime movie opened the gate for me to that world of ashes. I still do not know anything more, but I can feel my resolve resonating in my every cell on this side - a world heading to become ashes. That is not all, the greatest for me is something impossible to put into words besides "Poughkeepsie". I could, but I fear it would fly off like a bluebird set free. I beg for Thy forgiveness for yet not letting this go. Feeling it filling me to the brim is ... I feel alive.

There is something I would like to share here, another fragment of me. A theory I have been thinking over. To those not aware, I´ve written stories about people... lives of people and their rebirths, parallel existences, ends and beginnings of worlds and for some reason, these topics do not strike me as uncanny, among those lives are some of angels. Thus, to me they are people as others.
The reason I brought this up, is that this movie talks about parallel worlds (and wars, they left for a war, I feel), thus made me want to talk about existence. The part of what could be called an existence, a life - to me it means, that characters in works of fiction are people to me. Call me crazy, If You Like, My Sire, but this notion is based on the experience of creating worlds of fiction with lives of fiction, of having stories stream into my head from Somewhere... one particular with a woman so much like me dying... . There is a saying, that those who know do not speak, meaning the wise ones seeing and knowing the truth about existence, about everything. I want to know too, but yeah, I get scared sometimes, but still somehow continue walking on this path what will eventually lead me to that, what I wanted to know/ remember and maybe, back to the side of my most beloved. Due to my characteristics, that might be in an other dimension :P and I do not mind.
That movie brought me back in touch with that writing experience and all together the notion of being connected to something greater, to something I like calling The Flow, what btw is a major topic in Datebayo ;)


So sound the words of a fool, blabbering, not faint murmurs, but clear and rather loud nonsense, all as an intro to this:


http://www.animecrazy.net/fullmetal-alchemist-the-movie-conqueror-of-shamballa-watch/258637

& mark the final words Ed says to Alphonse, who agrees with his older brother.
To tie things up: have You noticed, how much Kiedis now resembles Hitler?

Good night, Everyone!

Cutie

My today´s Challenge

ps this is my 301st post :D

Merearm

keereldes, kummardades
mustast valgeks
mandariine ostmas
klaasikillud punaseks
tormisilma äikesest
ja välja, pööreldes
kleit seob jalgu, põlvili
kukun ja tõusen
meri on sinine nagu rahu
tõotatu on kohal
et unustada.. jätkub kaosetants

hommik mit raadiosaatega siin me oleme
51211


ehk on plaan teatud sorti asjadest siia kirjutada, see väike hoiatus ;) :D & jõin kohvi!

Missing text

Oh lovely - I can somehow read files in EBSCO... OK, calling it reading the files is actually a lie... ´cause I can read everything but the file/ text. I actually enjoy these clitches, animating a computer one could say, that it shows personality :D
Now .. I must dress up, today is a special day

The Day of 3-Course Meals, Hazy Diary 2

My computer is taking a lot of time loading sites, ´cause I happen to have Porco Rosso in the second tab - meaning that I´ll soon retire from the Net into the animated world, where a valiant pig is fighting flying pirates. I noticed, but did not read an article on that movie in Sage database and now regret... what is the story behind it? What is meant? Anyways, I am going to enjoy Porco Rosso like I have before. Btw I am still working on anime-related stuff for uni, I like it. When there.. I´d like to recommend an article .. I think it had "Screening, not Greening" in it´s title and as you might read out, it has to do with business and the ecological views - it involves Godfather too ;) and once again I feel, that all is clashing - in a good way :D Meaning, that I have a past, what has to do with the eco and I am facing a future pretty much built on the positive feelings what anime stirs in me. As a closure I´d like to share one moment I had a few days ago. I had a rough patch over here, it was as like a storm had ravaged me and my home and I had been doubting, that I had not done the right thing. And then - that moment! It was like deja vu ... I was sitting in my kitchen and then I saw a memory of that same moment, a screen shot. Some kind of peace came flowing from that memory, that it is all OK. Warmth .. the warmth of that present and of that memory, the brightness.. :D So.. that´s all, folks - for tonight at least ;)

Ps finished watching Fruits Basket. Beautiful :)

Almost Midnight, Hazy Diary

Feeling sleepy, having too much going on, facing things once coming, now here & things gone, what I had thought to be eternal. The last is about my grandparent, who is now in a new period - no more doing everything and letting others do that. Something very precious to me is through this gone forever, only in my memories I can return there and hopefully in the future I can bring something like that warmth and beauty to life myself. Goodbyes are painful, not only regarding people.. this time I find myself looking at the back of the one already far. That about the so called sad and now on with the happy - bonbon. Can not say much more, but sharing this ... overload of happiness with this word - bonbon. Life gives bonbons, positive genuine surprises - twists of faith of the brighter kind. I am so happy and grateful for those... including a friend, who seems to read my mind, asking the one question I truly needed to hear - thank you for caring, for being here. And sry for being a mess. I am tangled in my problems and not always there, so all of you.. if You need me, give me a call. I love calls... mainly due to a Troll and unbelievable mornings ;D Plus, Readers, whom I do not know - if you have something to say, some wishes - contact me ... positive stuff, please - there is enough non-positive going around and please be kind to me from so on or continuously :D Now sleep, ´cause I am starting to seem weirder than usual to myself :P :D Good night!


Ps my favorite part from Fruits Basket, Yuki´s words to Kisa... I am still waiting... have I been accepted or am I a fool, who has not noticed, that it has happened already - I am a bit dim on that part :P
The part can be found there: http://www.animecrazy.net/fruits-basket-episode-17/